Arising _2:07am_71111_

It’s been a while, and much have changed...

I can’t even remember what the feeling was before...

The flame had gone, only bits of it remain...

Confused and wondering, that is where I am now...

So many questions linger in my thoughts...

Every night it haunts me, floating somewhere,

Something lingers at the shadows of my glee...

I thought i could be contented, but am not...anymore...

Some things are meant to be left alone,

But most of the time, those things misunderstood...

Should I? Or should I not?

For whom, and to whom?

I’m not certain at anything at this point...

Regret has no place in my soul right now,

I stand to what I said and did...

But now i’m a bit shaken with things...

Must I be this troubled

After all the uncertainties that I surpassed?

Cowardice has no room in my being,

But why have I got the feeling of giving up?

So much for honesty,

So much for bravery...

My ears were shut tight,

But now unplugged...

How did I come to this?

What happened with warmth?

Why did something as sure as this,

Come to an abrupt end?

Teary eyed, staring at my reflection,

Had been another scene,

I would have escaped like a lioness...

Greedy of freedom and dominion...

A beast has returned from the grave...

A player who played with deceit...

Confused with the role...

Trapped in a den of lies...

Happy yet, unfulfilled...

Still searching for fulfilment...

Nothing seems right for now...

Lost in wilderness and bewilderment...

How can someone see white?

When all is black in one’s eyes...

How can someone hear music,

When all there is,

is screaming echoes of what should have been...

mind,

body,

soul,

spirit,

heart,

everything’s tired of the cold...

numb,

cold,

deserted,

abandoned...

feelings that i could not fathom...

but then all came in a rush...